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03:38am 09/10/2006
  may I say ,it has been fucking ages since I have said anything here,
lost at work -but wait I Fired my Boss!
and U can too! if you need too, -in fact most folks ought to
simply start Firing their Boss's all over the place!
..I guess what I'm thinking about really is that; Bad guys make out
just fine when No one complains or does something~
in fact, complaints are mere words, were as -actions are ,how shall we say...
"less argue-able"
less talk!
more killings! let the Killing begin!
if You can tell that your Boss would really be fucked were You to
leave him -oh' & through in - and he really deserves it
he ought to be stuck in the ass
..In fact You are standing in Gods way
so do God a favor! will U?
Do what I did ...get out of the way
let go & get out of the way
good morning all
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well OK ...I suck!~   
03:12am 30/04/2005
mood: surprised
You scored as Satanism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Satanism! Before you scream, do a bit of research on it. To be a Satanist, you don't actually have to believe in Satan. Satanism generally focuses upon the spiritual advancement of the self, rather than upon submission to a deity or a set of moral codes. Do some research if you immediately think of the satanic cult stereotype. Your beliefs may also resemble those of earth-based religions such as paganism.




















Which religion is the right one for you? (new version)
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I'm trying to do this again & I will leave it to see if ...well the trure resultz will speak ov' me in ways
which go beyond words - or at least that what I woulb be feeling about myself anyway * ...

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well ok that sucked~   
03:08am 30/04/2005
mood: surprised
You scored as Satanism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Satanism! Before you scream, do a bit of research on it. To be a Satanist, you don't actually have to believe in Satan. Satanism generally focuses upon the spiritual advancement of the self, rather than upon submission to a deity or a set of moral codes. Do some research if you immediately think of the satanic cult stereotype. Your beliefs may also resemble those of earth-based religions such as paganism.




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I don't think I know how to answer questions on these things............

the bumd down the street   
02:22pm 26/04/2005
mood: determined
there he is, that guy on the side ov' the road
holding a piece ov' card board with a lie written on it with a big sharpie
hanging out by the off-ramp
waiting for You to stand in the way ov' whatever the Universe is telling him,
You could by piecemeal hand him a gratuity for his lowliness to that end...
why not it make You feel better now doesn't it?

how does he compare with Hitler?
well, he get away with it....what another Hitler comparison?!
yes, whatever is the thing which one is compelled to "get away with", for what ever reasons,
like walking away from dedt or other responsibilities
or being like a member ov' the national-socialist-party ,and barely doing much with one life
as they did...it's still within the pale a compare-ability...
the SS directed others to do their bidding if You recall,( just as one would -give em a hand out!)
so many Hitler references so little time, right?
what are You attempting to get away with today?

why attempt?

I guess it'z all a matter ov' perspective.
how may I help You? now that's a time tested idea!~

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what if U saw it too?   
12:01am 26/04/2005
"You know what was largely responsible for that guy’s [Matthew Shepard's] death? Those two guys who killed him did not go out looking for a homosexual to kill that night. They were shooting pool. He went to the bar. He left with two guys he thought he was gonna have sex with. He got murdered. How many women has that happened to? How many women have left bars thinking they were gonna get some action with some guy who raped and murdered and tortured and murdered them? Far more women than homosexual men have ended up dead that way, I would guess. Is that a hate crime against women? I think so but they specifically picked the woman who was willing to leave for sex. If Matthew hadn’t been willing to leave for sex, he might still be alive. That certainly doesn’t make him responsible for his own death but when you put yourself into a situation of going off to have anonymous sex with people you meet at a bar, what kind of person is gonna leave with you? Usually scum.... This was a terrible tragedy but it’s also one that might have been avoided if he had simply gone home with his friends instead of thinking he was gonna get a little."

- Dr. Laura radio show, April 16, 1999 (quoted by CBSC).

....Wow that's ballzy , I don't know if I could disagree with her on this...ah -think about all of it!
even the way she says stuff ..the sound of her voice
it'z so crule yet soothing hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

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11:00pm 25/04/2005
  I really feel as though there "very much might not have been"
a thing called "beginning"
even in judeo-christianity there was "someone" who harbored
the impulse to create ,and then said "let there be light"
( You know ...in the beginning [?] )
conceiving something before it was conceivable............
well, conceive that!~

" the missio ad gentes"   
07:20pm 25/04/2005
mood: bored
I just got a chance to do the livejournal thing so here goes

what about that new pope guy? I hear-tell that he's actually catholic...oh' god what next?
and many folks are remiss over how he seems to be some kind of a hard ass,
and even the tales of how during his service in the Volksarmee or was it "die Hitlerjugend"?
it would seem to me that some folks would love to hear that Pope Benedict vi(Joseph Card. Ratzinger) was a nazi youth...
hoping the worst for his reputation, and what kind of prejudice shit is that?
I read the "DOMINUS IESUS" (Drafted by pope-Joe`)and it was a catholic thing
written to inspire clear Roman Catholic direction. (no one died!)
if you aren't really catholic
than You won't really like it~
But I guess what I'm bringing up is the point of how folks in the news,& religious leaders from other faiths
are so quickly taking to heart the "potential" draw back - or -chilling effect on "Tolerance" this fellow
is going to have on everything........( this is "preventitive exclusion" in the form ov' lies)
It's an illusion
and I am certain that in time ,folks will begin to recognize the Intolerance over "supposed Intolerants"
is a prejudice too.
then what sort ov' demagoguery will the rigid extreme Left have to fall beck on?
if they were to show all there true colors the jig would be up!
and that goes for the Catholics too ,let it become what it is - & if need be leave it for the foolishness
you feel it had always been - not because You can't effect social change in this church.
how about because it is engrossed in a hole bunch ov' shit that Your not in too.
people are funny
I believe that all folks have the same sort ov' "spiritual wiring" although feel the grips ov'
some source ov' consequence or perhaps interference,
I could put it this way - I'm almost certain that people all have the same beliefs ,but they
do not know how to believe - perhaps most don't even want too.
& thats the way it should be right now..so just accept it!
let go
aren't most ov' these things like little temptations to get You all fighting ...
it'z got me fighting even with myself, I feel what I'm writing is meaningless,
although I'll just put it out there
so I ought to just accept that
I might be right about both things no one can agree in all completeness
& no one want's to take in the message ov' this here entry.
I accept
now pick up Your cross & follow Me!~
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Perturbing note   
10:01pm 05/04/2005
mood: grateful
..Um, as I encounter folks who are using "the patch"
( that's the Nicotine-Transdermal-System*)
& are quitting the old smoke-a-rooh habit
they have the patch on,
& during that same day, have a few smokes.....
...Um , well ah` yea...
although not surprising, it still looks disconcerting.


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today installment   
03:17am 20/03/2005
mood: determined
as for my estimation ov' acceptability :

1st.: not all folks are capable ov' accepting me ( not all agree*)

2nd.: I am in a constant process ov' learning regarding "accepting" which course lays ahead
& my place (be it a thing one could call blame) in the scheme ov' things.

3rd. regard for "The truth" means having a degree ov' "Willingness" were one can trust,
that even if my first Impression ov' timely developments, is hasty & frustrated.. (& I throw a fit`)
still I will see what I'm looking at - as it comes into focus!

retrospective thread: here goes!~

*As in the 1st.,so is it with me:
I will not always agree - there's stuff I refuse to accept.
(this is how I know it is true*)

*As in the 2nd.,My knowledge belongs to me , conversely ....I can recognize
when different paradigms ("brand-name" ingredients ov' folk's perspectives*)
this refines the exercise ov' tolerance Vs. confrontation
" & the wisdom to know the difference " -see the serenity prayer.
this shit is part ov' growth - this shit could be why someone just might kill me,
but fear not! for this body shall find a way to assume room-temperature -It'z coool....
I'll be coool , I promise! ~LoL~

As in the 3rd.
ALL KNOW! everyone can sense when they lie to themselves, but that is only one component
ov' every situation, does not lying help when you face interference?
like when you are being cross examined for the benefit ov' someone else's agenda?
"are you harboring any Jews in your attic?" or "Do you still beat your wife?"
how about "Do you- *Know*-Jesus?" so when do we with-hold truth?
when it is useful ...... to not have an honest sense ov' this dynamic
is to say I Will never Lie` which is a gross estimation - a promise waiting to become a lie.
on the one hand there is that stuff I wrote - (see above -if U want*)
& now here's the insides, I know myself as a parent would think ov' their child,
discipline is part ov' the job. I am my first born
if shit ain't clear enough , one couldn't be able to tell if something would introduce them
into a situation which they themselves wouldn't be able to control themselves in.
............sound familiar? ..ok now add people
and fierce currents
varying degrees ov' "Willful-Unwillingness" ( dude` learn this phasing!!!*)
add other culturally imparted "willful-Unwillingness "
And folks can only 'want-to' appreciate what pleases them anyway ( the degree ov' Willingness*)
*** But our Lives are problems which bring god the results It needs.***(We are god's questions*)
consequences are consequentially personal to the people who personalize it,
Yet taking shit personally is a very slippery path isn't it?
...jealousy ...envy ...contempt with out a full understanding make for
more reasons to lie & then aggressive patterns are a risk also..
to "Apply more Dishonesty" perhaps, or a disregard for shit like honesty comes to mind too
on & on ........

these thought's are my constant supplication along with my very breath...
the Apostle Paul did say "Be in constant supplication" this conversation with god,
makes for a "conversant" -understanding were you have the formula - and it works
up & down ..in addition & subtraction
in body & spirit Conversely!

The conversation has never Started & it will never Stop, it is continuous.
the Universe is continuous it comes complete with shit some folks regard as limits,
perhaps they have to have that khauszzz it make it feel familiar, really familiar!~

Just like how life doesn't begin at conception.
Life Continues through a circumstance called Conception.
two things living, continue living.

that's me!
oh` and everyone else too .......

Zoe : is the indestructible - continuing life force
I can release the need for a thing called the beginning , this concept lacks a beginning,
but habits persist don't they?
besides we as a species may have an end.
and folks could take that a bit personally....and what about how the Idea ov' "beginningsms" become personalized?

I'm just saying!~
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heart ache   
02:03am 15/03/2005
mood: sad
I did find a fascinating person, who left me questioning my self,
this man was so charming!
and he'd call me like 3 time's a day told me he loved my company,
and he was so well put together I'm certain he was just out ov' my league,
honestly, he was from an affluent area ..& he was affluent too..
funny , brilliant .. chemistry was unbelievable
and then

.......yea, like that!~
he said "...um, it'z not your fault.."

I haven't heard from him in two & 1/2 weeks, oh' & I'm almost certain this is going to happen again
too ...khaughsszzzz I'm a fucking freak ov' nature
& I don't belong ...& that's is my fault.....
I did this to myself!
this chick with dick shit really fucking fuck's me up sometimes!
hmmmm... I wonder what this message would sound like if "Yahoo Reader" was reciting it?

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numerous encounters   
02:10am 02/02/2005
mood: cold
numerous encounters

..um, there are folks who I see, ...um, they're out there.
I guess I could say "I'm seeing folks" although the list is growing
I mean no time for sulking over being stood up, khuaszzz- the next nite
I'm all the more ready! so there's that..
no less than 4 on an active list with 2 or more kept in a Holding-pattern
that seem's to be the best way it has worked out
boy', what a work out!
there are day I just have to abstain from eating much
like the evening there before ( for the best tummy results I guess + it takes less to catch a Buzzz
in the event that adult beverages are involved
I must say though pot brownies on an empty stomach kan put U into to quite a stupor
so super-stupor sex & line em' up khuaszz I ain't settle'n for garish melodrama
& I ain't into "involuntary-celibacy" so there!~

Besides, involuntary-celibacy is a marriageable problem....have U noticed?

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the end   
01:54am 02/02/2005
mood: drained
OK everybody stop!~

empty all!~

vicious victims league   
01:06am 26/01/2005
  new products are being developed all the time for the benefit ov' even the simplest ov'
the near-to-nay sayer type ..even they shall be persuaded , why', it's only natural!

1st. flood the internet with advertisement spots, usually on the periphery of your browser page,
for the germane purpose of bringing about a raised consciences regarding young men
and their Oral hygiene:
the titles could range from slogans such as"Floss boy Floss.."to"Floss that funky shit out- white boy"
or how about :
an Image of the bottom of a new trash pail: " here's your gum line....
here's your gum line when you're a lazy bum"
the trash pail ( situated next to an abject bum looking down into it..) the Image is
slimy shit juice swishing and sloshing as the pail is tilted .." gee, you didn't even use a Liner!~"

perhaps this should be every where ,although I guess it would just be better to have a little
something on the market too, so how about an interactive DVD-CD ROM disk that plainly
shows fellers (..& a few gal's come to mind too)...um,
wait!- this has got to be extended to cover a more broader range ov' hygiene issues......
god only know'S the red stateS need it!

Clean-&-clear for the emerging hero!
simple steps & carefully explained methods of Hygiene.. category, chapter & verse.
and now- what is most needed, is a section on finishing that long hair!
no more fucking guys with long hair in a news paper rubber band - rubbish!
special feature in this DVD is easy follow along or I'll have you taken out, instructions on
how to blow-dry & finish long hair " it only seems like a chore at first, until you compare
yourself to last year's photos & join the national "easy to follow or we'll take you out-club"
metrosexual shit is dead, let the urbanites show ya' how it'z done!
let the suburbanites show ya' what about that clean cut feller from the country....
we could hold conventions were folks could compete....
ah whatever .......................
just don't smell fucker ,it really sucks!~
who wan's to smell the chicken from god only know's how long ago, everyone else who would be
so honest, would let you know, if U really wanted them too.

Now what about the "miniature stun bracelet " & "the sure fire stunning pet collar"

we see it every day, less than obedient doggies & kitties & children, are in need of swift
and immediate indication that what they're up to, just might be a little too naughty .....
with the hand-held adjustable long range remote send a clear message leaving no grey area
~~'pa-fissshzz-Pop*~~ a mere jolt and shit is regulated in the most efficient manner!~
just slip the bracelet on with the contact nodes facing out, and you have a shocking solution
for anyone with any funny Ideas about trying to apprehend you,
simply have the potentiometer ready-set to the extreme "fried-french" setting...
something look's fishy ..well it'll soon smell fishy too just as soon as they make a total Ass
out themselves screwing with the wrong person!
and if that's not far enough for U
wait there's more .......rack em' up with a quick castration device called the
simply shock the fuck out of your assailant , making sure he's out for the count give em a zap
just below the occipital bone @ the back of the head -oh' he's out cold - although still partially
conscious!~ then run the heming pointer into place - in the usual location,
flick the the spring switch and presto ..I won't tell anyone if U don't, and the world
would be all the better, this Unique device can also be used to remove eye balls too!
an added plussss!
remember that's
1st. shock the fuck out of em'
2nd. exact the device into place and flick the motherfucking switch!
(and if You're truly pissed ..)
3rd. use this same amazing device to end his carrier at about anything of substance from that
point on!~ pop his mother-fucking eye's out!
Cornia collection is provided at non-judgemental hospitals marked as safe houses for like
were you could deposit you baby in the event you change your mind in the first 72 hr.s
ov' birth ....please note eye ball's are only good within 3 hr.s
as for the balls..well, i think stores like the Necromacer in L.A. could do something with em'........

everyone should have the this device - let the chips fall were they may~

a mere century   
03:15pm 01/12/2004
mood: bitchy
well a century has gone by and i guess it'z time too put something
in my journal..
well let's see..........
..um, i was thinking about switching out our most beloved national anthem,
for something more relevant reflecting our consumer type(& at times complacent)
society ..that's right there's no hiding how we are all a bunch ov' pussys lead around
by whatever craving has us captive:
the newly purposed anthem shall be (& easily recognizable for all..)
the song: " C is for cookie "
usually sang by general cookie monster, but i think if this song is to be put at
a higher purpose it ought to have a new voice so
how about the guy from "Cannibal corpse"..now i know he's not from america or at least
some one told me that about 6 months ago + the fact i don't even care but whatever...
well one day we'll get a not so "born american president" so foreigners real or imagined would
be quite suitable ..why', if U'r wrong about were anyone's from, U could just chock it up
to a difference in religious Opinion since truth it'self is now a matter ov' Opinion too
perhaps the cravings 1st & explain later reflex I have witness around me could give some
indication ov' were I would go if I were'nt really concerned _ although being concerned
seems to be a temptation in it's self also...
Rammstein think if Rammstein did a cover ov' " C is for cookie " ...yes
the only thing i don't know about is if the singer guy has quite a deeper sounding range
then the cannibal singer guy if U listen real close i think U'll se what i mean...
so then the result would be a thing that kind'a sound's like
Snuphelufagus does a cookie monster cover to Gay techno back-ground music !

well what U'r vote
do U know what I'm asking?

Ps. my friend says chris barnes (the "Cannibal corpse" fucker) is from buffalo N.Y. i think , that alone just might disqualify him !
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image host   
10:03pm 25/10/2004
  wow well i guess 4 days ain't bad .....WTF?
so much for free Image hosts!~
fuckers!~ shit did i do something wrong?- like it only works for a few days unless i know
the secret fucking combination code?


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enrapture's sister..   
10:42pm 21/10/2004
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I don't what i was "getting ready for" but on my way out the door,someone got a pic ov' me
what do U think....
I can seem to keep from comparing myself to the lovely & gorgeous Syreena Sexxton
( that goddess I have posted her picture ov' if only ..i mean -ah!~ )

ok so I've gone tottally nut'z -& slightly envyuos....but come on!!!

a Goddess Syreena Sexxton!~   
10:26pm 21/10/2004
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(P.S. sorrie her geocities thingy isn't up anymore..oh well.)

could this be Don Bardoe's grandson?   
10:16pm 21/10/2004
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I saw this & it kicked ass so much i had to post it!! this person (transgendered)woman or whatever
has got my vote!!!!!!!!!

"she" says:
" God! How I hate talking about myself! Okay-if I must...
>I'm down-to-earth
>I'm vain
>I'm caring
>I'm a bitch
>I love men
>I hate men
>I respect others
>I DEMAND respect
>I'm shy
>I like to make a spectacle of myself
>I'm quiet & withdrawn
>I'm loud & opinionated
>I'm a virgin
>I'm a whore
>I adore animals
>I deplore people who BEHAVE like animals
>I want children
>I AM a child
>Politics bore me
>""Morality"" offends me
>Kind people rule!
>Mean people suck!
>I'm a free spirit
>I'm a slave to love
>I need a man
>I'm EVERY woman
>I'm schizophrenic
>No I'm not!
>I'm not bad-I'm just drawn that way
>You can call me ""he""...you can call me ""she""...as long as you call me

kick ass dude!!!!!!!!!!
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09:17pm 21/10/2004
  ..um, I don't think bobby's ever gonn'a finish Jebus off,
don't U hate when that happens?!~

who's head?   
10:36pm 19/10/2004
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talk to little bobby, as soon as he's finished.
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